ON LOVE

Ask not what it can do for you
Ask not of whence it comes
Ask not the color it exhibits
Ask not its prescribed duration

Do not analyze the particles of the whole
Do not attempt to rearrange it according to your own 'Prescription'

Accept it for all that it May become ~
But first, just accept what it is now
Contribute all the beauty of which you are Capable

Do not attempt to seal it within the
Confines and Boundaries of your own Design

Accept merely that It IS
And, then, Rejoice

Yesterday is a Memory
Tomorrow may never arrive
Today is all you own
Be Here Now!

(C) Sirius Lady

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LOVE IS ?

Can a single person ever define
A word whose meaning you will find
Is something different to every man
Yet, understood in every land

Wouldn't this world be a better place
For each of us in the human race
If someone would just reach out each day
To let us know, They care in some way

So if you think of it tomorrow
Reach out and banish sorrow
Reach out ~ Extend your Hand
In Peace and Love to your fellow man

And so, I reach out this day to share
A poem of Love, Because I care
And because I know, All else above
The Greatest Possession of all Is Love!


(C) Sirius Lady

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THE DAY I MET YOU

The day I met you Darlin'
Was the day my life began
I've had so many yesterdays of Pain!
I was searching for a Rainbow
And then, I saw your Smile
I never thought that I could Love Again!

The day I met you Darlin'
Was the day that time stood still
The Lonliness & Tears all went away
I've had so many Fantasies
And Dreams that don't come true
But now, the Sun is shining every day!

The day I met you Darlin'
Was a day when Dreams come true
I knew it from the moment that we met
Now the days all bring me Sunshine
And the nights all bring me Love
And a Happiness
That time will not Forget!

The day I met you Darlin'
Was the day you stole my heart
And since that day
I've never been the same!
I'll share all your Tomorrows
I'll share all of your Dreams
I love you so ~
I'll even share your name!


(C) Sirius Lady

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DARE I DREAM

Dare I Dream that Dreams come True
That I'd meet you, and Love you so
Dare I believe the Rainbow's End
Could really send
Someone like you

Dare I Dream that you'd be Mine
Throughout all time
To Have and Hold
Dare I believe, that this could be
That you'd give me
A Ring of Gold

Dare I Dream that Love has found me
It just Astounds me
That you are real!
Dare I believe, This piece of Heaven
I'm really living, And all I feel

Dare I Dream that Pain has ended
Your Love has mended my broken Heart
Dare I belive that now
Through all time
You'll really be mine
We'll never part

(C) Sirius Lady

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ALMOST ALWAYS

I have to learn just how to Laugh again
I want to learn just how to Smile
I long to feel, Just for a moment now
Even if, it's just awhile

I have to learn just how to Live again
I need to learn how not to cry
I need somehow to learn to Give again
And then, perhaps my fears will die

I want to learn just how to Love again
I need to know just what is 'Real'
I have to see if I can care again
I need to know that I can feel

I'd love to learn to be a Rainbow
I need to learn to share the glow
I long to be a Ray of Sunshine
And shine for those I do not know

But Almost Always
Love has brought me Pain
Almost Always,
Blue skies have brought the Rain
Almost Always
I try so hard to win
But seem to lose
As soon as I begin

Almost Always
When I've opened 'Heaven's Door'
I discovered,
There was Hell And so much more
Almost Always
I feel I don't belong
Maybe this time,
You could prove I'm wrong

Almost Always
When I feel I can't survive
Almost Always
Then I wish I weren't alive
Almost Always
I feel I can't go on
Maybe this time
You could prove I'm wrong

(C) Sirius Lady

(On CD: From Nashville to Neptune)
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HELLO ~ GOODBYE

Sorrow falling all around me
As the Dawn is drawing near
Once again your ship is leaving
Once again the meaning's clear

For, Love alone it is my nature
And Love alone it is my will
And yet, this love I've found with you
Just leaves me unfulfilled

Sailing ships mean only heartache
Loving you the way I do
And your sails out in the Sunset
Only mean Goodbye to you

Shadows falling all around me,
When all alone at night I cry
As your ship is slowly leaving
I find, I wish to die

Now the Dawn is slowly breaking
The crystal Sea lies just ahead
And your sails will bring you pleasure
But for me, my wish is dead

I know the tides are coming
And once again you'll have to go
So lay down here beside me
Darling ~ I Love You So!

Now you say that it's Goodbye
But it's been said too much before
And tho my Heart is slowly breaking
You'll still walk out through the door

Once again I'll see you leave
Once again at night I'll cry
All my life I'd spend with you
But it's just
Hello ~ ~ ~ Goodbye!


(C) Sirius Lady

CD: Broken Heart ~ Shattered Dreams
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IT TOOK A LONG TIME

It took a long time to talk it over
It took a long time to say Goodbye
It took a long time till we decided
That our life was just a lie
And we would just
Let our Love die

It took a long time for me to realise
Why it was you had to go
But such a short time to discover
That I still loved you so
And yet I know
You had to go ~

Go find your way, go seek your fortune
Go do 'your thing' so all alone
Go seek your dream
And when you find it
Take what you've earned ~
Then come back home!

It took a long time to find the courage
Just to face my life so all alone
But now I know that I can do it
Now I see how much I've grown
And yet
Our house is not a Home

(C) Sirius Lady

CD: Broken Heart ~ Shattered Dreams
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FREE

I Loved you Then ~ I Love you Now
I guess the only thing I never learned
Was How
For still you are Away from me
And all I know is suddenly, I'm Free

I've made mistakes, I cannot lie
But all I'm asking
Is just a chance to try
For now, each night my Soul does cry
And all my tortured mind can ask
Is Why?

So silently my tears do fall
They make me wonder,
Did you ever care at all?
So Free I'll stay, Unless you find
That it was me who helped
Your Heart and Soul and Mind

I'm Free to be, Just me alone
Ain't got no place that I call Home
Yet now I find, That since I'm Free
The Lonliness is overtaking me.

(C) Sirius Lady

CD: From Nashville To Neptune
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THE YELLOW WINDING RIBBON

Just trying to drive,
With Tears in my eyes
Taking me further from you
As the road slowly bends,
I'm wondering when
I'll find that my Heartaches are through

I know that I'm searching,
For something I need
I look, But I can't seem to find
The Seasons go by,
And I'm wondering why
I can't find my Peace of Mind

I know that I'm seeking
A way to be free
Looking for someone like me
Whose dream is the highway
Who wants to live it my way
And, I'm wondering,
Where can he be?

I guess I'm just a Wanderer
Who's trying to find my Dream
By following that road that always bends
But the Tears I hide inside me
As I wonder who I might be
When the Yellow Winding Ribbon
Finally Ends

And the Yellow Winding Ribbon
Leads me on
Lines along the Highway
But are they right or wrong?
Following each sunset
That leads me on Anew
Will the Yellow Winding Ribbon
Lead me back to You?


(C) Sirius Lady

CD: From Nashville To Neptune
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WONDERING

Been Wondering what you're doin'
Wondering how you've been
Wondering if I'll see you again
Yes I know it isn't easy
Being on your own
The Pain will stop
But, I just wonder, When?

I hope you're really happy
With the life you've chosen now
Even though it means that
We must be apart
And though you know I'm lonely
And I cry most every day
The Love for you is beating
In my Heart

I'm wondering how I'll make it
The nights all seem so long
I wonder, Will I ever be the same?
Cause life is always changing
And I know I'm changing too
But I'm crying every time
I hear your name

Separate Paths
Separate Lives
Separate Highways
Searching for the Truth that lies Within
You go your way
I'll go mine
It's better that we do
But I wonder where the Journey
Finally Ends?

(C) Sirius Lady

CD: From Nashville To Neptune
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HERE I STAND

Here I stand
At the Crossroads of My Life
No longer Sweetheart ~ No longer Wife
Here I stand, My life before me now
Making out, the best I can, somehow

Here I stand amidst the hurt and pain
Every thought just echoing your name
Here I stand, in just an empty show
Nothing left ~ Nowhere left to go

Here I stand, The Pain within I feel
Reminding me,
The Heartaches all are real
Here I stand, So lonely here am I
All alone, until the day I die

Here I stand
Amidst the hurt and blues
Looking at
The different paths to choose
How to know?
The ways all look the same
The one I want
Begins with just your name

(C) Sirius Lady

CD: Broken Heart ~ Shattered Dreams
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ALMOST AUTUMN

As Aspen leaves are turning
My thoughts all turn to you
I think about the Love we used to share
But now the nights grow longer
And the Aching's getting stronger
I still Love, but You're no longer there

The long ago when love was new
Now seems so far away
I wonder if the Heart can ever mend?
The Memories surround me
Nights close in around me
I'm waiting for the Pain to finally end

I guess the Sun is shining
On some place that I'm not
'Cause Autumn
Is the time of Death & Goodbye
The Clouds roll in, I wonder why
It's raining all the time
I need something in my life to live by

Autumn of my lifetime
Sorrow of the years
Reflected all around me
Through the shadow of my tears
And though my heart is broken
There's not much I can do
For the Autumn of my life
Is the time when I lost you.

(C) Sirius Lady

CD: From Nashville To Neptune
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I LOOK FOR YOU

I look for you, Wherever I go
And Yet, I know
You won't be there
I look for you, Each night & day
My heart does say
You won't be there

I search my empty heart for you
I call to the heavens above
What can I say or do
I need you my Love

They say you are gone now
You won't return to me
And yet my heart's not free
To Love again

This is my life now
Each lonely night I pray
Awaken to start each day
Just Looking for you

(C) Sirius Lady

CD: From Nashville To Neptune
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ENCOUNTERS OF A VERY LONELY KIND

It always seems
You appear within my Dreams ~
To show to me
That Life isn't always what it seems
Just a Dream ~
Or just a state of Mind
Just Encounters of a very lonely kind

It always seems
In my Dreams, you're here to stay
First we Love, Then you Leave
As the night slips into day
Is the love for real or only in my mind
Just Encounters of a very lonely kind

Is it raining in the sky or in my heart
Everytime we Love, It seems we part
Is the thunder in my head
Or from the Sky
Everytime we Love, We say Goodbye

It always seems
In my Dreams you're really near
Telling me those words,
That I really need to hear
Are the words just heard
Within my Mind
Just Encounters of a very lonely kind

(C) Sirius Lady

CD: From Nashville To Neptune

HOW COULD YOU PROMISE ME TOMORROW?

How could you promise me Tomorrow
Was it just a thing you liked to say?
How could you promise me a Lifetime
How could you make me think you'd stay?
How could you promise me, Forever
You're not even here with me Today
How could you promise me Tomorrow
Was it just the price I had to pay?

How could you promise me Tomorrow
Did you really mean it at the time?
How could you write the word 'Forever'
Inside the Ring that made you mine
How could you weave for me a Daydream
Of a life forever by your side
That Dream is just a nightmare now
Of a love that's gone and died

For Love to you was just a plaything
You play awhile, Then you're gone
Leaving those who love, behind you
Still believing They were wrong


(C) Sirius Lady

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FOREVER ~ JUST A SEVEN LETTER WORD

What was it that we said
So very long ago
To Have, To Hold, To Always Love
Till Death should let us go

But, oh the words we'd spoken then
Within a different time
Remain a Promise, even now
Within this Heart of Mine

And yet to you, the words we said
And promised then, to live
Have fallen by the wayside
In a way I can't forgive

'Forever' ~
Just a word you wrote within my Ring
That held for me a Promise
Of a Life that it would bring

What was it then we promised
That we would always be
Just two in love Forever
Beyond Eternity

And Yet that promise broken
My heart in pieces too
I gave my all, All I had to give
To no one else, but You

Forever ~ The Sound of Love I heard
Forever ~ Just a seven letter word


(C) Sirius Lady

CD: From Nashville To Neptune
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THE TEARS ACROSS THE PAGE

The Tears across the page
Are proof you see
That Words and Pain
Go hand in hand with me ~
For only thru the Pain
Can Inspiration reign
To form the words of Life's Philosophy

The Tears across the page
Could never tell
The Agony of living in this Hell !
Where the price I have to pay
Is getting thru each day
I want to scream ~
But, Who is there to tell?

The Tears across the page
Would only show
That rain is falling in my life I know
But I've only just begun
To try and find the Sun
And see if there's a Rainbow where I go

The Tears across the page
Are not a lie
For when the Inspiration's flying high
The reason is the pain
That's flowing like the rain
From promises of Life I could not try

The Tears across the page
Will always flow
From lying eyes that never let it show
And from my lips that sing
Of Life's romantic things
A heart is slowly breaking,
Don't ya know

The Tears across the page
Will never end
The crack within my Soul
It will not end
For every time I dare
To open up and care
It only seems I lose it once again

The Tears across the page
Are full of Woe
The Fears and Desperation
Do not show
To a world where none would care
To see the Heartache there
Or of the reasons, even wish to know

The Tears across the page
In coming years
Will only serve to emphasize my Fears
Of losing Love again
Of searching all in vain
To try and find the Sun,
Behind the tears

The Tears across the page
I understand
Are necessary for the growth of man
So hope for all that's good
That's all you really should
Because in the end
It's never like you planned!

The Tears across the page
Could set me free
Because they start the Poetry in me
The words that one fine day
Could start me on the way
To change my Dream
To Stark Reality!

The Tears across the page
May help me Grow
Into the person I'd like Me to know
For they're teaching Want from Need
And give the Soul a Creed
To help prepare me
For the 'Final Show'

(C) Sirius Lady

CD: Broken Heart ~ Shattered Dreams
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FOREVER and BEYOND


The love that you feel
And the love that you show
Goes silently on
In the Truth that you know

In the Heart & The Mind ~
In the Grief that you bear
When it seems at the time
The World does not care

You know in your heart
The Love that you shared
You know of the Friendship
You know that he cared

So in silence of tears
At Midnight while crying
Remember That   Love
Think Not of the Dying!

(C) Sirius Lady

For: Daddy, Richard, Steve

3 Shining Stars Whose Light Was Extinguished Too Soon
But Whose Love Goes On
Forever And Beyond
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FORGET ?

Could you forget you had a heart....
If one day it were gone?
Could you forget the beauty
Of an early morning dawn?

If the blessed gift of hearing
You've possessed from the very start,
Were suddenly taken from you
With the beating of your Heart

Could you then forget the Ocean's Roar
Or the song of a Bird above?
Or the sound of a Voice
That Special Voice
Proclaiming:   You are Loved!

If all at once, You could not see
And had to feel your way
Could you forget the Sun & Sky
That start each newborn day?

If all these things, You could forget,
And never recall again
Then Love shall never come to you
As it has to me, My Friend.

Forget?
No, that is quite impossible
And all the advice you give
Could never make my heart forget
The reason I had to live.

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LOVE DOES NOT END WITH DEATH
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In loving Memory of
Daddy, Richard, Steve

Via Mystica:
My German Shepherd Girl
13 Wondrous Years of Love


Day Dream Destiny
My Beloved Horse
March 15, 1991 ~ August 17, 2005
13 Love Filled Years

Forever ~ And Beyond

(C) Sirius Lady

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THE FLAME OF LOVE

The Flame of Love, I light tonight
From just one tiny Spark
To symbolize the Love you find
In the lonliness of dark

For just one spark is all you need
Thru Life, To light your Way
And yet, most people that you meet
May never do or say ~

Those things that really let you know
That they are in Darkness too
And that they need your Friendship
It's too hard for them to do!

So if you have inside of you
That very special Glow
Then share it with the friends you meet
And watch the friendship grow

And, whether it be a stranger
A Child, A Dad, or a Mother
Don't keep that Spark all to yourself
Reach out, And touch another!

I light the Flame of Love tonight
With the hope that you may see
That when Two Sparks of Love Unite
It changes ' I ' to ' We '

(C) Sirius Lady

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LOST AND FOUND



WE GO THRU SO MUCH HEARTBREAK
WE ALWAYS WONDER WHY
WE ASK WHAT WE DID TO CAUSE IT
WE WONDER :     DID WE TRY?


WE QUESTION TEARS AND SORROW
WE TRY TO FIND A WAY
WE WONDER WHAT WE DID
FOR THE PRICE WE HAD TO PAY


WE GIVE AND GIVE OUR HEARTS
WE THINK IT IS FOREVER
WE THEN DISCOVER TRUTH
AND FOREVER TURNS TO NEVER


WE WONDER WHY THIS HAPPENED
WE QUESTION STARS ABOVE
WHY WHAT WE HAD WAS LOST
WHY NOW WE LOST THE LOVE

THERE ARE NO SIMPLE ANSWERS
PERHAPS, IN SPACE AND TIME
FOR THOSE WHOSE HEARTS
ARE BROKEN
THERE IS NO PEACE OF MIND


THERE'S ONLY DAILY TURMOIL
OF PAIN AND GRIEF AND TEARS
WE WONDER WHEN IT ALL WILL END
IN DAYS ~ OR MONTHS ~ OR YEARS?


SO FOR THE TIME BEFORE US
THE GOAL IS JUST SURVIVE
TO MEND THE BROKEN WING
TO LET THE SPIRIT THRIVE


TO SEEK NEW PATHS & JOURNEYS
TO TRY AND FIND A WAY
TO BRIGHTEN UP THE SPIRIT
TO FACE EACH NEW BORN DAY


FOR LOVE ALONE THE ANSWER
THAT MENDS THE BROKEN HEART
THE LOVE MAY COME IN MANY WAYS
IF YOU ONLY LET IT START


THE MIND AND HEART MUST OPEN
TO SEE WHAT LIES BEFORE
TO REACH FOR ANY CHANCE
THAT MAY OPEN ANY DOOR

A PET,   A TREE ,   A SUNSET
ARE SOURCES OF THAT LOVE
IT COMES IN MANY FORMS
JUST WATCH THE STARS ABOVE

(C) 2004 ~ Sirius Lady

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HOW?



How does a Heart feel like crying
When a Heart has no eyes or no tears
How does one walk in the Sunshine
With companions of Shadow & Tears


How does a Soul go on living
When the Twin Flame no longer burns
How does one deal with the giving
When the heart hopelessly yearns

How does the Sun keep on shining
When the days seem all cloudy and gray
How does the world keep on laughing
When my Teardrops keep falling each day

How does a Heart go on Beating
After it's broken in two
How do I go on with living
A life that is no longer with you

(C) 2005
Sirius Lady

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This is the title of my second CD and seems to apply to the following poems and lyrics.

There is a Warning Label that is offered
due to the Intensity of the Emotions aroused when reading these words

Yes, I have lived the Pain
And, Walked thru the Dark Night of the Soul

But I also have Learned Life Lessons from those experiences, and have Journeyed on from the beaches of Florida to the Rocky Mountain High and a better sense of Who and What I am

The Most Profound Lesson of Life

~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ LETTING GO ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~
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Broken Heart ~ ~ ~ Shattered Dreams

Who? How? Why? What? Where?

These Answers Lie In The Realm Of The Cosmos


Why have I been given this gift of Poetry & Song?
I have no idea !

I do believe though, that the words are intended to share, and so I have.

I have produced 2 CD's and each song is presented exactly as it was channeled

Additional poems will be added to this site with time, as the amount of material is extensive.

If you feel a Cosmic Connection, please Email to me and share your thoughts.

RUFFIAN333@webtv.net

I leave you now with a quote that was channeled through me long ago:

Journey Not Upon The Path Of Another
Lest You Arrive At Their Destination
And Not Your Own

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Rocky Mountain High

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